Thursday, August 14, 2008

Conference Calls and Headsets

I am not exaggerating when I say that I have been talking on the phone now for almost the complete day. I started a call about 10AM this morning and have been on the same call for most of the day. Literally with a headset in my ear and working working working. This whole move I'm still trying to digest. I went from a place that I knew everyone, knew my job very well, and knew everything about my surroundings. I'm now in a place that is completely new. I will be the first to say that this experience is stretching me out. I still have a phone in my ear right now and talking, but I just needed to type as usual and do something non-work related to get my head straight!

On another note, being a guy is such a crazy thing. Girls have it rough in so many ways and have to deal with things that men cannot even comprehend. Have you read Leviticus? :) All and all it is tough to be a guy too. There are times when pride is such a crappy thing to have, well almost always. I can speak for most dudes and say that we are a prideful species. What do we have to prove and why in the world do we need to prove ourselves? It doesn't matter if it is in your job, your ministry, your relationships, I think all guys feel the need to prove themselves. To a certain extent, this can be good from a Biblical standpoint, in that you are realizing that your worth is in Jesus and because of him, and anything you do comes out of that understanding. I know that I sin in the way I try and prove myself to people around me. I know in my job, I can't stop until I've beaten something. It drives me nutz for something to beat me. At the end of the day, I want to know I've done something that changed for the good. One day, I hope to speak to thousands of people, and sleep at night knowing I shared the good news.

It's neat how God communicates to us all. He has such a funny way to deal with me and sometimes it makes me just kinda throw my hands, but I have to just laugh. I know that He knows how to deal with me and bring me to a place that He can teach me. It seems like lately, I'm learning more than I can really process, and it's sad because I haven't really felt like I've engaged Him lately or spent time with Him like I know I need to. I talked to one of my boyz today that I haven't talked to in a while. It felt good to talk to someone that really knows who you are and I can be myself. I've learned that in new environments, I'm a little shy and really can't be myself and relaxed. I've confirmed that I need to be around a large group of people to stay sane.

It's also crazy how God puts you on the different side of the fence sometimes so you can get an idea of what it is like. Sometimes I am guilty of seeing life so one-sided, but then He comes and puts me in my place...oh, so that's what it's like over here. ouch.

So I'm glad I wrote a little blog that I can read again one day and laugh at. For now, I'm going to get back on my call that I've been talking through while writing this, and sit in a lab for the rest of the night.


B-HO said...

Hey I stumbled across your blog while viewing Ashley' should read the book "When People are BIG and GOD is small" by Ed Welch, its life wrecking, but life giving at the same time. Hang in there!

JT said...


what up. Thanks for the book rec. I usually pick a few up a year to read, I might check that out. It best not be cheesy.